*Seat Fight*

Sunday, March 18, 2007

12:53:24 AM

Tarou-san, Guess what happened today?

A lot of things had happened. Maybe I’ll just start from my everyday life, when people around me (or maybe me too, before I know you) only think of themselves. I saw every little thing from long ago; seemed like people always pretend to didn’t hear, didn’t see, and didn’t care about what happened to other people. They only care about what give them advantage and when they found someone with a really pure heart they took advantage of them. They made fun of other’s people misfortune to make them fortunate.

Once I saw a lady (about 45) made fun of a fat girl only to start a conversation with a girl sitting beside her, that that girl laughs along with her. From small things like throwing trash everywhere and pretend they saw nothing and never picked it up to the trash bin, our nature is screaming!!! Why can’t you hear…!!?? So many crimes, and people hurt each other in their lives. I dunno maybe I’m far too idealistic… but seeing all of that hurts me a lot at times… I want to do something but I don’t have a power to do anything… maybe just speak out my mind… I’ve done that of course, I’m not that kind of person who just sit and watch… that changes nothing. If I do something and it reaches them maybe they’ll understand someday… I hope.

Today when I wait for my bus, only a few people queuing, so we don’t have to fight for seat weren’t we? When I got in there’s only one seat left, the position is like this:

A

B

C

Seat A is empty, a guy on B, and this Obaa-san on C.

I’m going to sit on A but that obaa-san from c put her hand on A so I can’t sit down, she tried to save it for her daughter who’s not even step in to the bus! That really pisses me off since I waited her to lift her hand coz I’m there, I need to sit down but she pretend she didn’t saw me and put her hand there. So I do some extreme things sometimes, and this time I tried to lift her hand. But her reaction made me shocked;

She SHOVED me, and pull her daughter AT MY AGE to sit down.

Really, im angry till the top of my head, and I screamed;

“JERK!!!”

So loudly until every single one in the bus turns their face to saw me.

“I PAY TOO! YOU’RE NOT THE ONLY ONE PAYING HERE!!”

I said that with my eyes going to pop out of my skull, and I shake really bad, she saw me but then looked away… I must seem so scary…

And she kept pretended to be deaf.

I don’t give up that easily, I kept on staring at her and said;

“you’re already old, but that kind of attitude….”

I can’t take it anymore. Then she suddenly raises her voice and ask her daughter to stand up and said to me;

“PLEASE TAKE THE SEAT NOW, MISS!”

She’s such a shallow person, isn’t she!!!??

I’m not complaining about that seat you take from me!!! I’m talking about the way you treat me, the way you treat other people!!! You shove me for a single seat!!!! And not a ‘sorry’ statement I heard from you but you attack me back!!??

I just stare at her and I couldn’t believe a person like that really exists. It seemed like she only had a heart for herself and her daughter, and treated other person like a shit.

Of course I lost my taste to sit down, and an old man stand beside me and I ask him to sit there. When she saw me did that, she made a very ugly face. See!!?? She really had an ugly heart and didn’t felt happy to see someone else do something good! I can’t believe this!! If she’s a good mother, she won’t let her daughter AT MY AGE sit down when an old person stand there in front of her face! Hhh………

And because of desperation of the country and its people around me, and I don’t have enough strength to do anything, I cried. I cried so bad, but no one cares. Only the old person I asked to sit down told me to sit when an empty seat is there. Nobody else cares about me…. And that made even sadder. I know people are different… but if everybody can care more, the world is going to be a much much better place! Why?

And if all of people can learn to value things like you, Tarou-san…I’m sure everything will be beautiful.

Maybe because my personality, sometimes I think nobody understand me… my mom said I’m too sensitive… but isn’t sensitive good? That made people CARE about their surroundings more. And if someone cares about others, beautiful thing happened, isn’t it?

I’m sure you’ll understand…

Too bad my discman is out of battery, if I heard your voice that time, maybe I’m not that angry and cried that bad. You’re voice must be whispered to me to calm down and told me everything will be alright, so I don’t have to embarrass myself ^^;

Oh yeah, bad things happened, but good things too!

Your and Pura’s magic has reached one of my friend’s heart, she got a power back to live up her life with head up high. She said she thank you Tarou-san, (and I believe of course Tadashi, Buchi and Akira too^^). I believe your magic really exist and it can reach everyone who willing to open their heart, and I think this is the only thing I can do to make things better; through your music, isn’t it?

Oh yea… and I wonder where I should put all this? Should I made a blog for Pura? if only I had an internet connection myself… updating blog must be much easier!

Oh yeah, and once more, Tarou-san… you never failed to made me smile, even when I’m crying. When I heard your voice and saw you, I always smile from my heart. I felt like I’ve been forgiven, and I don’t know what to do to pay you back and send my gratitude…

Ah I must be crazy coz I’m talking over and over again… so many people only value people from what they saw at the outside; and they felt superior at times… it is not I never like that, I felt superior sometimes too, but what I’m trying to say is even a person like you who really has God’s gift in every single thing you do has always been so humble…

God, I love you ^///^

~Juwd~