The Most Lonely Eyes I’ve ever seen

WARNING:
all posts in Sentimental Pot is my obsession about Ryutarou so if you hate extreme things you better not read coz i can get too sappy ^^;

Tuesday, April 17, 2007
9:41:41 PM


I’ve just realized what suck me straight into his eyes since the 1st time I saw him…
At first I think because it is hypnotizing, deep and dreamy…
Those are true, but the most important thing is: they always looked so lonely.



These just examples…
But I find it in every pictures of him…
When I turn off the lights and stare into his eyes…
I found his loneliness,
Then I found mine.
I’m sure everyone has lonely side deep inside their heart
Where everyone become themselves to the full…
Only alone.
And when our loneliness met, it’s just felt so beautiful.
It felt like he’s the only one in this world who understands…
If I came across a person with this kind of eyes in the street…
I think it’s enough to stop my pace and stare at them…
I dunno I just have something with peoples’ eyes…
Even he hide it with his bangs… even when he smiles…
Those eyes stay still…
As lonely as always.
And now when I think again…
That loneliness is everywhere…
Of course in his voice too
And I think that what makes me so comfortable
And make me want to be myself and out from my routines that tied me up
And what other’s thinking about me…
That voice and eyes that encourage me to find what I REALLY want in life
That brings the outer and inside part of me
Sitting together and chat while they’ve never know each other before.
And I wouldn’t be surprised if they two are sooo different from each other.
When I saw old peoples…
I always felt pity…
I know this oji-san in my campus…
He always walking around brings a box of orange and tried to sell it to us.
It’s that kind of eyes…
Seemed so far and lonely and always stabbed my heart.


~Juwd~